Stolen from E ***edited***

Nine things you wish you could say to nine different people:


1 - I'm SOOOO glad you came into my life. It's almost like the last 25 years didn't happen. I wish you were around all those years but I'm glad you're here now. I don't want to spend another day without you in my life. I love you.

2 - It's amazing how things happen and people just walk into your life. I'm SOOOO glad you did. you're amazing and have become one of my best friends literally overnight. How does that happen? I don't exactly know but I'm glad it did. :)

3 - Honestly so much I want to say but I don't know what to say. Stop trying to have MY life!!!! You have hurt me over and over and over again and expect me to just forget it all like I have before and been burned. Don't try to tel me how to lose weight, you didn't do it on your own. AND the reason you got so sick, wasn't because a doctor messed up...it was because you haven't eaten since Halloween 2008. I feel like a worthless piece of crap because of you and I can't stand the sight of you.

4 - Ok so this applies to alot of people.... Why am I only good enough when you want something? When you want to bitch about something or someone? I don't get it!!!!! When I'm alone or hurt or need to talk, you're never there or want to turn it around and make it about you.

5 - I love you.. I always will have major love for you but I'm not in love with you. I feel like everything is completely forced between us. This is not going to work but I want to at least be friends. It's never been the same since.... well.... you know. Sometime within the next year, I will be gone. hopefully.

6 - I miss you. More than I can even begin to express. I don't know how such strong feelngs developed so strongly, so quickly... I've cried a few times since you left... and hold out hope that someday I might actually hear from you. when we were together you made me feel so amazing like I was the greatest thing in the world and you wanted nothing more than to be around me but when we were apart, it was like I didn't exist. :'( I miss you

7 - you can't keep changing your friends like you change your underwear... the ones who are here for you, may not be tomorrow.

8 - You make me smile everyday and feel so fortunate to have you in my life. you make me frickin crazy at the same time but I wouldn't trade one second. I cherish every minute we have together. I love you.

9 - When you told me you were sick, a part of me died. I was so sad I couldn't be there for you. When you just told me you wanted it to be over and to just die, a little more of me died. you're so special to me and I don't even want to think of losing you. you've been an amazing friend to me and I love you so much. I've never wanted to be back home more than I do right this second so I coud be by your side. I understand your future isscary but with the advances in medicine, you have to be optimistic. I refuse to be anything but.





Eight things about yourself:

1 - I don't think anyone wants me and I probably won't get what I want because I already have 2 kids and can't have more. Oh and because I'm already married on my way to a divorce. I truly look at myself like damaged goods.

2 - I am constantly comparing myself to everyone around me and pick at all of the negative things about myself.

3 - I LOVE to dance and feel like I've got it.

4 - I love to cook and bake as much as possible.

5 - I hate excercizing. Dancing is the only way I can even move to burn calories.

6 - I don't like going outside TOO much. The heat makes me sick

7 - I'd kill for a snowstorm

8 - I Love thunderstorms. They are amazing. I would LOVE to see a hurricane





Seven things that cross your mind a lot:

1 - My kids.

2 - My weight

3 - The future.

4 - The past.

5 - My family.

6 - My friends.

7 - What I should be doing at that moment.





Six things you wish you hadn't done:

1 - Made school social.

2 - Dropped out of college.

3 - Rushed into things and....

4 - wasted my high school years with a boy

5 - So so so much....

6 - had to grow up so young



Five Things You Always Have W/You:

1- Kids

2- Cell phone.

3- iPod

4- my big empty purse lol

5- Clothes



Four Bad Habits:

1- Eating

2- Not exercising.

3- being lazy and unmotivated

4- Judging people.


Three Favorite Memories:

1 - Birth Of Em (even though I was alone)

2 - Birth of Ash (Even though I was alone)

3 - Kissing out under a streetlight... like in a movie.



Two things you want to do before you die...

1 - Be happy

2 - Get stablished in a career making money doing something I love and have a true passion for





One Confession:

1 I think I'm in..... uhh yeah